My birthday was a real whirlwind. I was away for a week, had a birthday, then flew to Hawaii. Birthdays are the perfect time reflect on the previous year: start lines, heart-ache, sprained joints, all of it. Here's what happened when I was 30
- 2 half-ironmans
- 1 ironman
- 2 half marathons
- 1 8km
- 2 granfondos
- 3 - I moved twice (twice!!!)
- 2 - I left my sexy design role and went back to People and Culture where my heart beats hardest
- 1 - not everything is forever and it was time
- teaching indoor cycling
- public speaking - I loved it already and I'm working on being comfortable, genuine and connected no matter how many people
- taking vitamins - it works, you guys
- threw my back out skate skiing
- sprained wrist from granfondo crash
- perpetually missing toenails - the cost of endurance sports
Lessons: I notice these now, hard to say that they only happened in the last year
- By each passing year I get better at knowing and saying what I really mean, uncovering what it is I really believe and want. I imagine it's the process of peeling back layers or polishing and polishing until what remains is essential and uncluttered. I guess when people say "getting comfortable in your own skin" they mean something like that.
- I don't need people to like me. Don't get me wrong, I like when people like me, but I'm also ok if they don't. I'm not for everyone and knowing that saves me so much time and energy.
- I say "no" and it feels good. I always tell people that their "yes" is only as strong as their ability to say "no" and I think I'm finally actually applying it.
- I'm ok with being wrong. I like being right and having the answer, A LOT and there's a time and place to be persuaded, to have my mind changed by someone else perspective and to flat out be wrong.
- I'm patient. Ok, I'm not patient. I'm becoming patient-er.
- I apologize. It goes with being wrong. I find it easier to take responsibility and clean up messes I've made with people.
I also notice:
- I have wrinkles! ...upgraded to smile lines
- I can get pretty hungover after one beer
- I feel 18, but when I talk to an 18 year old it becomes abundantly clear that I am 13 years older than them
- I can't get away with not sleeping. It makes me feel and look actually tired
- I don't like eating pure sugar as much as I used to
Things I wanted to do but didn't:
- bike race and collect points to be in the Granfondo Giro
- a skate ski race
- an ultramarathon
- go to school
...31 and counting.